As I think about my future and its entitlements, I can’t help but think about and remember my past and what happened to me along the way. I’ve been through a lot in my lifetime. It definitely hasn’t been easy. I think about all the issues I faced/face on a daily basis: physically, spiritually, emotionally and mentally.
Physically: My past surgeries I’ve had, my health issues that I’ve had to face. Some of the obstacles I’ve had to overcome.
Spiritually: My relationship with God, my faith and trusting in His power, timing and healing.
Emotionally and Mentally kind of go hand in hand. Both have been quite challenging. I’ve struggled with what others think about me, what they’ve said about me. Mentally with me having to deal with mental health issues which I’ve had to also overcome.
Would I change it? Some of it, yes. But, God puts us in a place and purpose for a reason. He puts us on this earth to be a light in the darkness, to show love and bring hope to the lost and hurting. He also brings people into our lives to help us grow and mature in our walk with Him. A certain singer/songwriter was right when he said ” It’s a meaningful life you’ve been given, so live it well!”
A few years ago, if you had told me that I would graduate high school, learn how to drive, go to college, get a great first job, and have an amazing boyfriend, I probably wouldn’t have believed you.
Amidst the struggles I have, the relationships I have, God knew what He was doing when He put me on this earth. He knew I would struggle, He knew I would go through some dark and scary times in my life. But He also knew the milestones I would reach, the accomplishments I would make and the hope that I have in Him. He’s definitely a good, good Father.
Sometimes I think I’ll never make it out alive. But God meets me there every. single. time. He takes me by the hand, we keep walking. I might kick and scream and throw a fit, but he keeps helping me and pushes me through it all. Have I got Him all figured out? Absolutely not! But I know that He holds everything in His hands.
I started writing out this post last night. I was listening to music on my phone. My phone played “My Redeemer is Faithful and True” by Steven Curtis Chapman (of course!) 🙂 I started crying. “And in every situation He has proved His love for me. When I lack the understanding, He gives more grace to me! My redeemer is faithful and true. Everything he has said He will do. And every morning His mercies are new! My Redeemer is Faithful and True!”
I am truly thankful for all that God has done in my life. He really is faithful and true!